assassinate your head

i've often wanted carefully to wire myself up and detonate my own head, if it doesn't explode on its own. but i think when push came to shove it'd be hard to push the button. of course, it is a difficult choice whether to blow up your head or your crotch, a la the "underwear bomber." both my head and my crotch have caused me numerous problems. but honestly, i don't know where they come up with a whole stream of people who are willing to do stuff like that. seems like hard work.